You know what I'm going to say, don't you?
Don't you?
Forgiveness.
He and I have been wrestling for several years.
To say that I'm winning is to say that I am being stubborn, and prideful, and ignorant, and hard-hearted, and it's all true. I should be losing to forgiveness. Humbling myself to its power. Executing the concept that I so often preach and associate with my faith in Jesus Christ.
Alas, here I am. Defeating forgiveness.
I'm so torn between how to teach others to forgive when I can't do it myself. Though I'm ready to forgive almost anything. Except that one thing...
It's holding me back, and I don't know how to handle it. I am trying, I promise. It's just so hard for me to do. I want to be faithful to God, and obey Him. I feel as though I'm part of the way there, and that forgiveness is the last step; the wall between us; the only thing left for me to do before I can totally surrender my life to Him so that He is in control.
I'm working on it, and God's working on me.
I'm ready for Thanksgiving Break.
Give Thanks With A Grateful Heart
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