Forget And Not Slow Down

Relient K. Again. What a surprise. They're just so good; what can I say?

Well, today I was listening to their song called "Forget And Not Slow Down" while I was attempting to master Unit 6 of Vector Geometry (which went just about as well as it sounds to the common ear), and the lyrics struck me:

"I'd rather forget and not slow down than gather regret for the things that I can change now. And if I become what I can't accept then resurrect the saint from within the wretch."

And I was like, hmmm, maybe that does make sense.

I have been beyond stressed out about everything: about my school work, am I going to get it done, am I going to get a good grade (the answer usually being no), am I going to wake up in time to get coffee, do I have something due tomorrow?, what was I supposed to practice, when are my math tests, what chapter are we even on?, and the list goes on and on and on and on and on.

Needless to say, college has been kicking my butt, and I am looking forward to the end of the semester when I don't feel a sudden overwhelming sense of panic sweep over me and take control of my very being every time I think about how much school work I have to do.

It's just a little ridiculous.

And I know: time management; don't stress out; get help; focus; discipline; schedule.

I just feel like it's taking me way too long to get into a routine of any sort other than waking up, getting coffee, and going to my 8 a.m. classes. I keep freaking out, and crying, and throwing my pens at the wall (it was sick: it hit the wall, then rebounded off the door, and THEN hit the floor. Now my arm hurts.). I keep feeling like I just can't take it any more, and it's a really scary feeling. There's so much to do, and I can't keep track of it all, and that alone stresses me out even more! What is one to do?

Well, I've at least come to a realization: Everything has a due date. After that due date, I can follow Matt Thiessen's advice and 'forget and not slow down' because once it's done it's done, and there's nothing more I can do about it.

Granted, I want to do my absolute very best to bring honor and glory to God and not half-crap everything, but if I try and don't quite meet the worldly standard, I can still find a way to praise God. I will admit that this whole stress thing sucks while it's happening, and thinking about it after it's over is even worse, but God's got a plan, and He will be the one to redeem my sorry excuse for a person and bring me out of this mess.

So, here's to letting go, and giving it all to God.

1 Peter 5:7

Song of the Moment is obviously going to be this one... "Forget And Not Slow Down" by Relient K: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=crMvz0Nv_HY&feature=related*

*I don't actually know if this link works, but if I find out otherwise I'll fix it and post a new one. Please enjoy the awesomeness that IS Relient K.