I ate a lot today.
Well not really. I just ate at 3 different food joints. Not at home. Of course, I had cookies when I got home. But it's whatever.
My friend Kate and I went to a local restaurant called Jerry's this morning and had coffee and these legendary sausage poofs, which are amazing. And it was great. Then we watched The Proposal because she'd never seen it. I just love that movie. It's so cute.
Then I went to lunch for my cousin's first birthday and had coconut shrimp! Yummy! :D
I can't be certain of exactly what happened after that. I came home, and I ended up taking some sort of nap. But by the time I woke up, I had to leave for church. Then I went and sang with the adult Praise Team, and afterwards I went with my friend Christie to this cute little diner/ice cream shop and we talked and ate. It was good. Because, we hadn't talked in a long time. Yep. Good times.
I came home, and I've been watching Friends with my mom and my cat ever since.
I need to figure out when I'm working tomorrow. And practice my Prelude.
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Block
Sorry. I've been skimping out on this daily blogging thing lately. I've just felt really uninspired, and also really super tired. But I do have a lot going on in my brain. I just can't articulate it all right now. But here's a glimpse:
Still reading Jesus For President and it's still an amazing book. It's making me want to completely re-do my life. Also, we continued the study of James tonight at Launch. Like I said, I've read James before, even memorized it once, but I still keep getting new stuff out of it! What's cool, though, is that what we talked about tonight at Launch only grew the seeds that have been planted in me earlier this summer! It's really cool. Like:
Eyes (lens) of grace, the poor will inherit the Kingdom of God, NOT showing favoritism.
Craziness. I'm just crazy. God is crazy. The Bible is crazy. Jesus is crazy. I want to be crazy FOR Jesus, in a way that's not so cool. But man. Really.
I'm blown away by the awesomeness that is our Creator.
Still reading Jesus For President and it's still an amazing book. It's making me want to completely re-do my life. Also, we continued the study of James tonight at Launch. Like I said, I've read James before, even memorized it once, but I still keep getting new stuff out of it! What's cool, though, is that what we talked about tonight at Launch only grew the seeds that have been planted in me earlier this summer! It's really cool. Like:
Eyes (lens) of grace, the poor will inherit the Kingdom of God, NOT showing favoritism.
Craziness. I'm just crazy. God is crazy. The Bible is crazy. Jesus is crazy. I want to be crazy FOR Jesus, in a way that's not so cool. But man. Really.
I'm blown away by the awesomeness that is our Creator.
Sunday, June 3, 2012
Jesus
I have not written since Thursday, and I apologize. Friday night I spent the night at a friend's, and Saturday I was working and got home and plopped.
So. Here you are.
Friday was splendid. I did not have to work, and I got to go running with Alexa and sister, did another day of Harry Potter workout, and went home. Later I went to my friend Kate's house, whom I have not seen since Christmas break!!! That was also great. And we, as well as two other friends, went downtown and drank coffee and it was lovely. Of course we also went to Walmart to buy cookie dough, chips, and Mountain Dew because we're girls. And we can.
Saturday I worked and went to dinner with my friend Sloan which was nice. We ate at Fork in the Market which I'd never been to (nor have I been to any of the "Forks" actually). I had chili. It was a lovely evening.
Today, however, I went to church and my mom's Sunday School class (which I love, by the way) and then had to go to work. Sunday School was really neat. The lesson was on prayer, and to keep it short today I think the greatest thing I learned that I had never really thought about before is that there are 7 (or so) types of prayer, and the first one that you must engage in in order for God to hear you is confessing your sings to Him. Because sins put up a wall and keep you from God. It was so weird to hear that perspective. But I liked it.
Tonight I went to Baccalaureate at my church for the class of 2012 and played piano for them. It was a really nice service because some of my best friends are graduating and our pastor, whom I'm very familiar with, preached and did a great job as always. He seems to always know just what to say. It's fantastic.
Afterwards we just kind of stood around and talked, and one of my friends, Alyssa, keeps telling me how much she's freaking out about going to college! Which is understandable. I've been kind of trying to keep her calm and give her some pointers on college in general and the first year itself. She said she's made some progress (which I found funny) but that she just isn't ready! Of course, I think she is, because she's brilliant and talented and nice and loves Jesus so she's pretty much set for life. But fear is a funny thing, indeed. Anxiety is, too.
In this season of change and doubt and preparation and fear for so many, I thank God that I can relax in peace knowing that when I come back to school in the fall, things will be familiar. I already know what to expect. I mean yeah, classes are different, but honestly that's the least of my worries. Haha. But not really, I just don't care enough. Well, I do. I'd like to graduate with honors. But it's whatever.
So. Here you are.
Friday was splendid. I did not have to work, and I got to go running with Alexa and sister, did another day of Harry Potter workout, and went home. Later I went to my friend Kate's house, whom I have not seen since Christmas break!!! That was also great. And we, as well as two other friends, went downtown and drank coffee and it was lovely. Of course we also went to Walmart to buy cookie dough, chips, and Mountain Dew because we're girls. And we can.
Saturday I worked and went to dinner with my friend Sloan which was nice. We ate at Fork in the Market which I'd never been to (nor have I been to any of the "Forks" actually). I had chili. It was a lovely evening.
Today, however, I went to church and my mom's Sunday School class (which I love, by the way) and then had to go to work. Sunday School was really neat. The lesson was on prayer, and to keep it short today I think the greatest thing I learned that I had never really thought about before is that there are 7 (or so) types of prayer, and the first one that you must engage in in order for God to hear you is confessing your sings to Him. Because sins put up a wall and keep you from God. It was so weird to hear that perspective. But I liked it.
Tonight I went to Baccalaureate at my church for the class of 2012 and played piano for them. It was a really nice service because some of my best friends are graduating and our pastor, whom I'm very familiar with, preached and did a great job as always. He seems to always know just what to say. It's fantastic.
Afterwards we just kind of stood around and talked, and one of my friends, Alyssa, keeps telling me how much she's freaking out about going to college! Which is understandable. I've been kind of trying to keep her calm and give her some pointers on college in general and the first year itself. She said she's made some progress (which I found funny) but that she just isn't ready! Of course, I think she is, because she's brilliant and talented and nice and loves Jesus so she's pretty much set for life. But fear is a funny thing, indeed. Anxiety is, too.
In this season of change and doubt and preparation and fear for so many, I thank God that I can relax in peace knowing that when I come back to school in the fall, things will be familiar. I already know what to expect. I mean yeah, classes are different, but honestly that's the least of my worries. Haha. But not really, I just don't care enough. Well, I do. I'd like to graduate with honors. But it's whatever.
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Vulnerability
I picked back up Jesus For President again today. I'm really enjoying this read. I just hope I get something out of it that I put into practice.
Day 2, and my room is still clean. Hallelujah!
Alexa and I revealed our tie-dye today - they stained the dryer. Whoops! Picture to come...
Work today lasted 3.5 hours and was excruciatingly boring. We made $26.00, and I read my book. I feel like I should've been talking to my co-worker instead, but I didn't. I don't know. I'm torn.
I've realized something about myself: I'm bad at being vulnerable the way God wants me to. I have this attitude that I can just keep things to myself and it'll all get worked out eventually. I think this probably came from a point in my life where I was always complaining to get attention, and I thought the only way to get that attention or get people to talk to me was to act like I had a lot of problems. Once I realized that was super annoying, I stopped talking about my problems - stopped complaining.
Now, I'm having a hard time finding a line between complaining and just talking about how I feel or what's going on in my life to the people closest to me. Even with God I'm not real sometimes. It's like somehow I don't believe in the truth that says God already knows everything about me, so if I don't talk to Him about it He won't have to know and I won't feel bad.
But there is no condemnation in Christ. I need to remember that so I can pour out my heart to God instead of hiding it from Him, which is impossible to do anyway.
Anyway. God is good. Great, actually. And He loves YOU! By grace and through faith in Jesus there is salvation, and this, my friends, is THE Good News!
Day 2, and my room is still clean. Hallelujah!
Alexa and I revealed our tie-dye today - they stained the dryer. Whoops! Picture to come...
Work today lasted 3.5 hours and was excruciatingly boring. We made $26.00, and I read my book. I feel like I should've been talking to my co-worker instead, but I didn't. I don't know. I'm torn.
I've realized something about myself: I'm bad at being vulnerable the way God wants me to. I have this attitude that I can just keep things to myself and it'll all get worked out eventually. I think this probably came from a point in my life where I was always complaining to get attention, and I thought the only way to get that attention or get people to talk to me was to act like I had a lot of problems. Once I realized that was super annoying, I stopped talking about my problems - stopped complaining.
Now, I'm having a hard time finding a line between complaining and just talking about how I feel or what's going on in my life to the people closest to me. Even with God I'm not real sometimes. It's like somehow I don't believe in the truth that says God already knows everything about me, so if I don't talk to Him about it He won't have to know and I won't feel bad.
But there is no condemnation in Christ. I need to remember that so I can pour out my heart to God instead of hiding it from Him, which is impossible to do anyway.
Anyway. God is good. Great, actually. And He loves YOU! By grace and through faith in Jesus there is salvation, and this, my friends, is THE Good News!
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Not That I'm Complaining...
Today Alexa and I ran (per usual) and then we tie-dyed shirts just for the heck of it! I'll get to see how it turned out tomorrow. (They're purple and green, by the way - my two favorite colors!)
But then I cleaned. For 5 hours I cleaned. My room hasn't looked this good probably since we moved in. No joke. Even my mom came in and said I should take a picture, and she just wanted to stand in it and look at it because she's never seen it look this good.
I cleaned the piano room. I took out a bunch of trash. I swept. I vacuumed. I did dishes. I organized, and disinfected. And then... my efforts went to waste. That happens when you live with a teenaged boy anyway, but reason I was cleaning was because I was going to have a friend over. And since we never have company, and we also NEVER clean, I had to frantically try and make the house look presentable, and I thought I had done a good job of it. Alas, plans fell through and I'm sitting alone in my clean but empty bed room with nothing to do.
Oh well. There's always next time, and incentive to clean more often (haha yeah right).
I haven't felt any spiritual growth today. I've also gained weight, and it shows, and I'm upset about that. I realize that I shouldn't be getting worked up about it, but it's just been one of those days.
I realize also that I'm not feeding my spirit like I'm feeding my body, and that's a huge problem. I'm gonna try and work on that, so here's my giving myself a few practical ways of attempting this:
- When I go to work, don't eat if I'm working a short shift! Don't drink soda, but instead drink water, and bring a book to read when business slows down so I'll do that instead of eating, because I tend to eat when I get bored. I have several book options I could be focusing on that will aid my growing relationship with Jesus, but I haven't been bringing them to work for some reason. I really should, though, and I think tomorrow I will. I only work 3-4 hours tomorrow so I won't have to eat, and we probably won't have much to do. I'll try to run tomorrow, too.
Anyway. My rant is done. I apologize for the morbidity of this post. There is joy in the Lord! And in Him I feel content, joyful, peaceful right now.
But then I cleaned. For 5 hours I cleaned. My room hasn't looked this good probably since we moved in. No joke. Even my mom came in and said I should take a picture, and she just wanted to stand in it and look at it because she's never seen it look this good.
I cleaned the piano room. I took out a bunch of trash. I swept. I vacuumed. I did dishes. I organized, and disinfected. And then... my efforts went to waste. That happens when you live with a teenaged boy anyway, but reason I was cleaning was because I was going to have a friend over. And since we never have company, and we also NEVER clean, I had to frantically try and make the house look presentable, and I thought I had done a good job of it. Alas, plans fell through and I'm sitting alone in my clean but empty bed room with nothing to do.
Oh well. There's always next time, and incentive to clean more often (haha yeah right).
I haven't felt any spiritual growth today. I've also gained weight, and it shows, and I'm upset about that. I realize that I shouldn't be getting worked up about it, but it's just been one of those days.
I realize also that I'm not feeding my spirit like I'm feeding my body, and that's a huge problem. I'm gonna try and work on that, so here's my giving myself a few practical ways of attempting this:
- When I go to work, don't eat if I'm working a short shift! Don't drink soda, but instead drink water, and bring a book to read when business slows down so I'll do that instead of eating, because I tend to eat when I get bored. I have several book options I could be focusing on that will aid my growing relationship with Jesus, but I haven't been bringing them to work for some reason. I really should, though, and I think tomorrow I will. I only work 3-4 hours tomorrow so I won't have to eat, and we probably won't have much to do. I'll try to run tomorrow, too.
Anyway. My rant is done. I apologize for the morbidity of this post. There is joy in the Lord! And in Him I feel content, joyful, peaceful right now.
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
James
Tonight, James punched me in the throat via Scott Quirin.
I need to start living up to the Gospel I so often preach.
James 1:21-27
I need to start living up to the Gospel I so often preach.
James 1:21-27
Monday, May 28, 2012
Praise, Work, Yeah
I've had this song stuck in my head - Praise His Holy Name! - and it's probs because I've been playing a zillion times a day since...well yesterday. And I like it! It's all syncopated and jazzy and awesome.
The first line is: "Sing 'til the power of the Lord come down; shout Hallelujah! Praise His holy name!"
It's so cool to me because it completely reinforces everything I believe about worshipping God through singing and music and dancing, and that's what I think when I think of straight up praising Jesus! This song has been so encouraging, because I'll whistle it while I'm at work and it's just that reminder of God's love and Jesus's awesomeness.
Also. Work. Has been pretty good, I suppose. Although it's kind of been keeping me from my friends and doing things other than, well, working. And it's only going to get worse. Putting things in perspective, though, I guess it's good because I'm making some pretty good money and it's causing me to actually get up and do something instead of lay around the house. Although, I'm eating REALLY unhealthily at work, so it may not be the best for my body. Oh well. My co-workers rock, and I am so fortunate for them. Which I probably said yesterday. Well. It's still true today. So whatever. I'm still trying to live up to Paul's call to commit our work to the Lord, and to work for Him rather than man because that really is where I'll find the most joy. I think it helps that my work involves serving people because it's so much fun to serve and I get a lot of joy out of that, which is how God intended it! Yay! :D
Side note: last night I had a really funny Skype conversation with a really good friend of mine whom I haven't seen in over 3 weeks! Tragic really. But anyway, I don't think I've laughed so hard in my entire life, and I have to say, it feels good. Truly. I GET TO SEE FRIEND TOMORROW! I mean, my friends at work are great, but they're like forced friendships. Tomorrow/Wednesday will both be great days. I am excited to see how I commit my life to God.
Oh dang. I did something horrible today. There was a man standing on the road at the giant intersection on 220, who needed help according to his cardboard sign. I didn't know what to do. I was sitting in traffic, waiting for the stoplight to turn green, and I couldn't figure out what to do. I panicked! Then the light turned green and all the cars pulled away and the man turned around and shook his head. I felt so awful! I wanted desperately to give him a ride to work with me and give him some food or money or something, but then I remembered everything people have warned me about, obviously, because I'm a young girl and picking up old men is dangerous. But didn't Jesus do dangerous things? But He was a man. WHO CARES? Gosh. I just didn't know what to do.
Jesus and I need to talk.
The first line is: "Sing 'til the power of the Lord come down; shout Hallelujah! Praise His holy name!"
It's so cool to me because it completely reinforces everything I believe about worshipping God through singing and music and dancing, and that's what I think when I think of straight up praising Jesus! This song has been so encouraging, because I'll whistle it while I'm at work and it's just that reminder of God's love and Jesus's awesomeness.
Also. Work. Has been pretty good, I suppose. Although it's kind of been keeping me from my friends and doing things other than, well, working. And it's only going to get worse. Putting things in perspective, though, I guess it's good because I'm making some pretty good money and it's causing me to actually get up and do something instead of lay around the house. Although, I'm eating REALLY unhealthily at work, so it may not be the best for my body. Oh well. My co-workers rock, and I am so fortunate for them. Which I probably said yesterday. Well. It's still true today. So whatever. I'm still trying to live up to Paul's call to commit our work to the Lord, and to work for Him rather than man because that really is where I'll find the most joy. I think it helps that my work involves serving people because it's so much fun to serve and I get a lot of joy out of that, which is how God intended it! Yay! :D
Side note: last night I had a really funny Skype conversation with a really good friend of mine whom I haven't seen in over 3 weeks! Tragic really. But anyway, I don't think I've laughed so hard in my entire life, and I have to say, it feels good. Truly. I GET TO SEE FRIEND TOMORROW! I mean, my friends at work are great, but they're like forced friendships. Tomorrow/Wednesday will both be great days. I am excited to see how I commit my life to God.
Oh dang. I did something horrible today. There was a man standing on the road at the giant intersection on 220, who needed help according to his cardboard sign. I didn't know what to do. I was sitting in traffic, waiting for the stoplight to turn green, and I couldn't figure out what to do. I panicked! Then the light turned green and all the cars pulled away and the man turned around and shook his head. I felt so awful! I wanted desperately to give him a ride to work with me and give him some food or money or something, but then I remembered everything people have warned me about, obviously, because I'm a young girl and picking up old men is dangerous. But didn't Jesus do dangerous things? But He was a man. WHO CARES? Gosh. I just didn't know what to do.
Jesus and I need to talk.
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